The unpredictability of spring is part of the fun. Just when we get used to something, it changes. Just when we get attached to how things "are", they change. Or, is change the reality and it is our desire to control that makes us want things to stay the same?
I have been trying to plant daily seeds with practice. Some days it is much easier than others to "find" the time, to "settle", to feel good in the practice. And then there are days that it is nearly impossible to pry myself away from work, kids, day to day "stuff" and get on the mat or cushion. And then, even more frustrating to find that when I do force myself to the practice, it feels all wrong, I feel tight, my mind can't stop with the chatter and the to-do list. But, then I remind myself. One is not "better" than the other. Be patient.
The fight and the frustration is no better or worse than the pleasure and the perfect flow. They are both placed there as the teacher. And then, in the end, it is necessary to surrender the outcome anyway. So, I can start again if it feels off or I can open and be receptive when it feels good.
Facing what is and sitting with it as it is. There is no need for the practice to be any other way than what arises. It is just a matter of practice.
Spring is a great time to understand change and volatility. We don't have to rejoice with the sun and lament in the rain. Both bring the right flowers and growth in the right time. Witness the changes without getting caught up in the big swing of the season.
--Charry
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