The transition towards Warriorship could not have come at a better time for me. I just closed a very long, painful, and abusive chapter in my life and am staring at a blank first page of the next. I am filled with a plethora of emotions and the range can be quite extreme, changing multiple times a day (or hour). I am allowing myself to feel them all; welcoming them and reassuring myself, as if I were supporting a loved one, that the process is natural and everything will be ok.
We're currently displaced from our home, as the removal of the energy vampire is occurring today. I'm trying not to focus on the potential destruction or theft of my things; carpets can be cleaned, walls can be painted, and electronics/appliances can all be replaced. The worst loss would have been staying, and not allowing an opportunity for my daughters to have a mother that was strong, confident, and content (and most importantly, ALIVE!). I hope the memories of all they have heard and seen don't impede their ability to cultivate healthy, loving relationships. I hope that now I can be a good example and give them the tools they will need to go out into the world as self-assured, well-adjusted, loving women. I hope they fearlessly greet each day with open hearts to receive all of the gifts that life has to offer (and that they very much deserve!).
This is my process of letting go and opening up to change. I find solace in knowing that I now have my freedom back, can take off my "mask", and create a more authentic version of my life and self.
So today I will walk/sit tall, softening my chest knowing that my current battle is over.
KLS
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